All night I labored, knowing I wasn't leaving without my baby. The sun rose again and I knew you weren't too far from meeting me. My angel nurse (thats her name because I know God sent her) came in and told me I was ready. The doctor came in and we started breathing through each break of contractions and made our way toward meeting you. I don't think I've ever felt the Holy Spirit so thick as I did the moments leading up to seeing your face. The room felt thick. A bright and beautiful thick... I knew this last push would be the one to bring you into the earth instead of my womb. It had just been you and me, but now I get to look you in the eyes. I held my breath and gave my life into those 20 seconds because all of you and all of your glory were about to meet my arms. I looked at your face and saw your daddy in you right away. They laid you on me and another chamber grew in my heart as you locked your beautiful swollen eyes with mine. You had been chosen by God before the creation of the world and He chose me to steward your life. What a beautiful, humbling gift. You were the one I longed for and prayed for. You ARE the one I long for and will continue to love and pray for.
This year has been the most stretching, stunning days of my life. Those beginning days were full of learning and crying and adjusting. These days are still full of learning and some crying and a little more adjusting. You're spunky, sassy, precious, beautiful, sweet, and I can't wait to keep learning you and loving you more. You are my wildest dreams made true. A picture of God's unending grace and love. A gift. I will love you forever and ever my darling daughter. Thank you for teaching me and growing with me. Here's to ONE baby girl.